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It gets better: Teen offers advice to LGBT peers

CHARLESTON, W.Va. -- I still remember when I came out to one of my aunts around the age of 12. Her reaction to the news was that it was not news at all, partly because she had suspected it for a number of years, and partly because she just didn't really care.Unfortunately, a year later when I came out to my late father and the rest of my family, they weren't so accepting. I'll spare you the details, but it involved everything you would expect -- name-calling, hitting, the whole nine yards.That was a moment when I realized that if there were ever a way for me to stop being gay, I would have done it. If the pure rage my father unleashed upon me didn't suddenly make me like girls, nothing would.My struggle with my sexuality, particularly after coming out to my dad, is again what you would expect. I kept to myself a lot, my already-diagnosed clinical depression got worse, and I had two suicide attempts. I was ashamed of myself, and I wanted to die.Through a random string of events, including being disowned by family members, falling in love and being dumped by said love 10 months later (and a week after my father's suicide), I somehow began to embrace who I was.Notice I avoided the clichéd term "embrace my sexuality." Your sexuality does not define you. It is one part of what makes you the person that you are. It was a part of me that I denied for so long, and even when I acknowledged it, chose to ignore or hate it.But when I embraced it, things began to click.The world seemed like a happier place -- which is odd considering there were more negative reactions than positive to me coming out. I was finally happy with myself, though, and that's all that mattered.I don't know your story, reader. I don't know if you're bisexual, homosexual, lesbian, trapped in the wrong body, whatever. But I do know that you probably don't know many 17 year olds who will proudly declare their sexuality in such a homophobic state. I can't give you much advice because every situation is different, but if you are struggling with who you are, there are some pointers I can give you:1. Accept that nothing will change you. People can tell you that you can pray away the gay, that you will find the right boy/girl, that society has done it to you, blah blah blah. No. These people are wrong. They are stupid, and they are literally as harmful as poison to you.2. If anyone doesn't accept who you are, screw 'em.
I don't care if it's your mom, dad, best friend, teacher or whoever. If they cannot say that they love you and would proudly welcome your same-sex partner just as they would an opposite-sex partner, then cut them out of your life as soon as you can. Because here's a dirty little secret no one wants to say: when you love people, you will accept them completely. And if they don't love you, why keep them in your lives?3. Only come out when you feel like can.
I hate saying this, but sometimes you need to stay in the closet in order to survive, especially in West Virginia. It does not make you a coward; it makes you smart. You are protecting yourself from possible harm. Come out when it is safe to do so.4. I love you. I don't know, but I love you. I love you, and you are important, and you matter. If you ever feel ashamed for being the way you are, if you ever feel like no one loves you, remember that I do. And remember that there are plenty of people out there, including our President, who are fighting to keep you safe and make you feel loved.Remember that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.I know it's hard being different, but it's a blessing, not a curse. Be happy with who you are. Realize that not everyone is going to understand you're not making a choice in liking the same sex or being transgender, but also realize that there are plenty of people who will.So keep your chin up, and don't let things get you down. And if you ever need to talk to someone, here are some helpful, and confidential, organizations that can help:
  • The Trevor Hotline: 1-866-488-7386 (A place to call if you feel you confused, in a crisis or alone)
  • National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255 (A place to call if you're feeling suicidal or emotionally distressed)
  • Trevor Space:  (A social network for 13-24 year old LGBT youths that's heavily moderated and a safe place to meet friends who are like you.)
  •   n It Gets Better Project:  (A website that offers support and encouragement for LGBT teens, including state resources like LGBT centers and advocacy groups)
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